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I’ve found it hard to relax this weekend. I’ve done quite a bit of working on my goal to build an online business. I shipped my first ever software product, shared it for feedback, and wrote and engaged a lot of X. All good. Except for the fact that I was short-tempered with Mabel and Frank. And that I spurned opportunities to spend time with them. That makes me feel really sad. I don’t see them much during the week. In our life as it is right now, our weekends are the our most protected time together. It’s so precious. And weekends like this one remind me that I shouldn’t squander it. I let them down. They deserve for me to be present and focussed on them. I want to play with them. Be patient with them. Laugh with them. Understand and accept when they’re not feeling great. Be there to listen and support and encourage them. When I’m constantly thinking about work and other things, they become a distraction, a frustration, and it shows in my behaviour towards them. Going forward, I need boundaries. Perhaps I shouldn’t work on my business goal at weekends. Certainly not at times and places when there’s a conflict between being with them and working. On the whole, I want to balance this goal with others, including being a great father, and excellent all-round health, and more.